That TikTok was a good place to share knowledge? So I gave in 😩 @lindsey_washington (I should probably be more creative with my username)
OCD, a word that’s been thrown around a lot these days. You might hear your friends saying “oh yes I had to clean my room before I left to meet you guys out because of my OCD”…or “I need all the books to face the same way because of my OCD”, in case you guys were wondering, this is not OCD this is called being clean and organized and it’s normal.
OCD or obsessive compulsive disorder is defined by obsessive thoughts and compulsions or compulsive behaviors. A lot of people suffer from obsessive thoughts from time to time. The need for perfection, organization and control, but what not a lot of people follow up with after these thoughts is compulsions or repetitive behaviors, rituals or actions that they HAVE to complete.
This becomes problematic with it begins to interfere with everyday life.
For example: someone with OCD might have the intrusive thought, “I’m going to get into a car crash if I leave my home and drive to work”. This thought alone is not abnormal and not a problem. A lot of people have this thought, I’ve had this thought and I’m sure at some point in your life you’ve had this thought as well. This might produce some anxiety (which is normal) and might give you some pause but after a few moments you realize that you’ll be fine because you drive to work everyday and the likelihood of you getting into an accident is low so you leave, go to work and have a great day. When you have the thought “”I’m going to get into a car crash if I leave my home and drive to work”, and the anxiety becomes intrusive, to the point where you are unable to leave your home not only to drive to work, but to drive anywhere and you begin to do compulsive activities that you think will prevent the ‘bad thing’ from happening. I might look something like this
- I have the thought “I’m going to get into a car crash if I leave my home and drive to work”
- The thought becomes overwhelming and I am unable to go about my day
- I being to do compulsions before I leave my house to prevent the car crash that I think is going to happen
- So when I wake up, I have to walk through the bathroom door at a certain speed, if I don’t do it correctly I need to do it again
- I need to make my bed a certain way, in the same way every morning, and if I don’t do it correctly I need to do it again
- When I leave and flip off the light switch, they all need to be facing down, and if I don’t do it correctly I need to do it again
- When I get in my car and slam my door, it has to be done at a certain speed and slammed a certain way, and if I don’t do it correctly I need to do it again
- (You see how this could be time consuming)
- If these things are not done correctly causes tremendous anxiety, but if done correctly then the ‘bad thing’ won’t happen
You can see how these compulsions would take up a lot of not only mental time but psychical time as well. Someone could spend hours doing rituals each day and it could severely interfere with their day-to-day life and functioning.
This, is OCD.
If you’re anything like me you get SAD aka seasonal affective depression. The moment December hits its like everyday feels like the Sunday scaries so it’s extra important to do extra things for yourself.
- Getting any sunlight you can (which is almost impossible in New York)
- Making plans with friends/being social and not isolating yourself even though it’s tempting
- Doing any and everything to make yourself happy
Here are some shots of my December (ps I normally hate Christmas but am trying extra hard this year to be cheery)
There are typically two types of trauma we speak of in the therapy world, big T and little t trauma (although people have debates on this language).
When we think of trauma we think of it in two categories (this is a little old school but alas, it’s what we’re taught).
- Big life events, ie. car crash, a natural disaster, war, an accident, a violent event etc
- Long term low level stressful happenings; ie. living in poverty and not knowing where your next meal will come from, existing as a minority having racist things said to you, being followed around a store, getting bullied in school and not having any friends.
Both are bad, both affect people, both have long lasting harmful effects. One can be commonly diagnosed as PTSD (what war veterans are typically diagnosed with). When you are diagnosed with PTSD it means that you life, or bodily integrity was threatened. It means that you could’ve died, perhaps you were close to dying or almost died. Additionally it means that your life moving forward has been affected, so maybe you have nightmares about the event, maybe you avoid certain situations that remind you of the event, maybe you were never the same. For example, I was scrolling on instagram the other day and saw this girls profile who survived the White Island Volcano blast – I got lost in a rabbit hole. Its fascinating and I won’t go into it but trust me it’s crazy. Anyways, this girl was on a family vacation, this volcano basically erupted and she got burns on over 75% of her body, her dad and sister died and she had to wear a compression garment for 2 years. She has nightmares, her life will never be the same, flashbacks etc. This girl, has PTSD. Her life was threatening, she is not functioning the same as she used to and it was one major event (rather than many smaller ones). I’m really breaking this down for succinctness and clarity (trust me we spent 2, 3 hour classes talking about this) but I hope everyone gets the point.
CPTSD – so this is a newer thing and honestly we haven’t really covered it in school/it’s not officially in the DSM-V (the holy grail of therapy) but like all things mental health there are always new diagnosis being added and taken away so keep a look out for this one esepcially after COVID. But CPTSD would be classified as a little t trauma – lower level, non-threats to your life, but constant and this is the key. So imagine you go to school and every week the school bully does something to you, pushes you down the stairs, steals your library book, makes fun of your clothes in front of other people (yes these are things that have happened to me) for a year. Then you go to high school and for four years every year don’t get asked to a school dance, when all your friends do, don’t get asked on dates, when everyone else does, get told you’re not beautiful, get made fun of for your hair, your clothes, the way you talk, everything (these are a mix of examples). So you can obviously see how being subject to his kind of stuff for 4-7 years could be harmful and while your life wasn’t threatened you definitely when through some turmoil and there’s no way you weren’t affected. Additionally you might still suffer some of the same side effects of PTSD like:
- Sleep disturbance
- Might turn to substances to cope
- Shame/guilt/emotional disregulation
So, I hope you guys get the point, but essentially there are two types of trauma, both are bad, in one type your life is threatened, in the other it’s not. However, it doesn’t discount one or the other and both are issues that therapy can help with!
As always comment if you want more deets or info. I hope you guys like the new content 🙂
Because this is who I am now:
(This is a link in there for all of you who are confused)
COVID happened, I lost my job and decided to take a pivot so here I am, 2 years into a 3 year Master of Social Work program, ready to embark on a new career as a therapist.
With that being said the blog will take a pivot, a small one but a pivot nonetheless.
- Mental Health – in the form of my ramblings, cool things I’ve learned in sessions, class, from my supervisor or my grad school friends
- Self Care (mostly in the form of images…nothings changed here)
- Tips & Tricks – small and noticeable things you can do to calm yourself (btw I hate journaling, meditation and working out so these will be real things you can do)
- And of course, the stories everyone has come to know and love, but with a twist!
I decided to keep the name the same because let’s be real, life is a struggle..and even more so in the past 2 years. I haven’t met a single person who is just thriving, and hasn’t been in some form of survival mode. The domain, shameless tales, because if you haven’t read anything on shame and the surrounding conversations with shame, then take a moment, watching some Brene Brown and sit with it. We should live our lives with less, without shame and aware of how it effects us all.
Let’s see how this next adventure goes and thanks for tuning in!
2 years later…and update on life and the pivot it’s taken incoming….
Any requests for my next round up? Or a show that I should be watching then write a round up on? Clearly this pandemic is going on until 2022 so you know I need suggestions.